Panic attacks are awful. In the past week, I’ve come close to having three. One was serious and two I was able to get under control before fully going under. I very rarely have panic attacks. Sure, I have anxiety issues, but that’s not the same thing. So when I went out of control I had no idea what was happening. I couldn’t see the tornado from the inside.
LaRae LaBouff lives in Maine with her husband and her dog. She’s an amateur photographer and enjoys traveling, reading, writing and roller derby.Due to personal experience with Bipolar Disorder, she delved into the literature and research of the human mind. She currently writes of her own life experiences both with Psych Central and on her personal site.
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It’s been a very rough time recently: moving, roller derby, work, basically a lot. Finally, a small, stupid situation pushed me over the edge. I was angry, had trouble breathing, was crying incessantly and I couldn’t figure out why. I thought I was going completely insane. This was it. The big one that I would never come back from. I was terrified. Then my husband sat me down and told me I was having a panic attack.
Panic attack. It made sense. Like most things, putting a name to it makes it less powerful. The unknown is scary. At least when it has a name you know someone has been there before and lived to tell the tale. So that meant I could too, and the next time one came around, I would be able to recognize the symptoms:
- Increased heart rate
- Difficulty breathing
- Feelings of losing control or dying
The attacks usually peak at about 10 minutes, but the anxiety leading up to an attack varies. A lot of times a panic attack happens without reason, even during sleep. It’s understandable that on top of the anxiety that caused the panic attack, the mental state itself is frightening. But what does cause a panic attack? Well, there’s bad news on that front. No one really knows. Panic disorder can be linked to family history/genetics, major stressful events, medication side effects or comorbidity with other mental disorders.
Around 20% of patients with bipolar I have had at least one panic attack. A patient with a history of panic attacks is also more likely to have shorter times in euthymic stages. If you have consistent panic attacks, have fear of another attack or a change in behavior because of an attack, you may want to speak to your doctor about panic disorder. It’s not uncommon for bipolar patients to have anxiety disorders, and panic disorder falls under that category.
It may be hard to imagine exactly what a panic attack feels like if you’ve never had one, but hopefully knowing the symptoms will help you recognize them should you ever experience one. Talk to your doctor if it becomes a problem that may require medication. If you do find yourself starting to show symptoms of a panic attack, you may need to take medication, but you also may be able to calm yourself without it. Here are some exercises I find helpful to reach a calm, safe state:
- Take deep breaths. Taking control over your breathing helps to give you more control over your body. Deep breathing will also help lower your heart rate. Breathe through your nose using your diaphragm instead of just your lungs. You get a better breath that way.
- Use self-talk. This is a tried and true method a lot of cognitive therapists use for many situations. Whether aloud or to yourself, telling yourself that everything is fine and the panic attack will end gives you more confidence that it will. With the confidence comes reality.
- Let yourself feel. It sounds corny, but your feelings are legitimate. Whether or not your fear is based in reality doesn’t mean you’re not experiencing fear. It’s okay to feel. If you repress it, you’ll only become more anxious. So recognize your feelings without judging them. Then go back to the self-talk and breathing.